A New Year!

Christmas Tree was taken down! Empty champagne bottles… Yes, it’s a new year! With new opportunities, challenges, and new blog posts! But before we look at 2018, let’s do a quick recap of 2017. It was a challenging year for me privately with many tough moments, but it wasn’t all bad. There were good moments too: GDC San Francisco, the release of our game Day of Infamy and my trip to Belgrade are definitely some of my highlights of 2017.

2017 was the year I started with therapy; maybe it would fit in my good moments, but it feels different. Perhaps more as a tough moment or not. For now, I place it for 50% in my good moments, and maybe one day it will be 100%.

Therapy really makes a difference and to be honest I don’t know if I would have made it through 2017 without it. I can write here how great therapy is! But on the other hand, it’s also very challenging, maybe even more than I ever could have imagined. Of course, I knew it wasn’t going to be a walk in the park, but the battle in my head is sometimes relentless… And I feel like “Okay that’s it! I’m done with therapy I just continue as is.

But then I realize… That’s what the dark side of my brain wants. Fortunately, my remarkable psychologist taught me EFT(Emotional Freedom Techniques), so I use that a lot during the difficult moments, and even though it doesn’t always solve it instantly, it does remove the sharp edges! 🙂 Also, I become more aware of my inner self, how the wheels are spinning in my head but at the same time, I don’t…

I was at the train station recently and in desperate need of a coffee. I know bad combination when you’re dealing with an anxiety disorder. But a fresh, delicious cappuccino with cream was hard to resist for Jeroen haha. Everything went well while ordering my coffee until I had to indicate the size I wanted, anxiety attack… Eventually, I managed to get my coffee, but it was quite a challenging moment.

And now 2018: Well already two weeks flew by. Time flies! Literally, the night before yesterday my clock decided it was time to fell off the wall… I hope 2018 will be a better year than 2017. I thought for a brief moment about my new year’s resolutions but to be frank, I don’t really believe in them.

I like to buy a house, making more progress in therapy and finish our game. But are those really new year’s resolutions? My world is moving so fast that I rather grab opportunities and face challenges when they arise on my path than following a straight line. I’m pretty convinced my year will be a rollercoaster, including corkscrews, loopings and more. I can already hear the voice in my head “Ready or not… It’s gonna be one hell of a ride!!

I wish you all the best for 2018, in good health!!

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Jeroen van Werkhoven

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